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2008-09-14T02:28:00.001-07:00

i'm deciding to make a shift.
Back to livejournal.
Where I can get my privacy.

Can I..?

2008-09-13T19:52:00.000-07:00

I miss someone real badly.
Sometimes, it is just really hard to put something into words.
Sometimes, it is just too difficult to speak up for yourself.

This reminds me of my primary school days! TEEHEES! I love this song yo!
It just makes my heart beat a little faster, smile from within. It makes me feel like screaming at the top of my lungs, play a prank on someone! HEHEH!!

Whatever! Anyway, latest updates, E222 went to bedok to eat BotakJones after church service yesterday. I did not manage to take any pictures of any sort. But we had a really good time together! MWAHAHAHAS! FINALLY KNOW THEIR DEEPEST SECRETS WITHIN!

Like ____ _____ _____ _____!! Like how many ex girlfriends Arison had! HAHAHA! How many ex boyfriends Nalina had! HAHAHA!! So interesting laaa!! Ok Ok! Enough! Hehehe!

Oh yea! The fish and chips was great!! DO TRY THE FISH AND CHIPS AT BOTAK JONES! I have not tried the Botak Jones Burger but hearing from what Ginny says, it is not nice. I ain't a dare to try person, so nahhs! Oh, the chicken chop is great too! (:

That's all. I am done with updates and stuffs!

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

2008-09-12T07:29:00.001-07:00

1,2. graffiti arts competition
3,4. Random peektures

Doesn't mean that you know my name means that you know me.
Gees. People all start acting up as if they know me really well.
FUCK YOU.
_|_
I hate people like these. They all act as if they have some psychic powers.
Let me tell you the truth, you guys are definitely sick in the head.
STOP ACTING AS IF YOU ALL KNOW ME! SERIOUSLY, You need a life! Tsk!

2008-09-10T19:52:00.000-07:00

BE IT WU MING OR NAMELESS!
KINDLY FUCK OFF!
SERIOUSLY! I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THIS ANONYMOUS KINDA GAME!
You're a psychopath seriously! STOP STALKING ME!
LIKE WTH!?
So what if my friend IS sick..?
It has nothing to do with you. GEES!
I AM SO PISSED AND IRRITATED! FIRST YOU DO NOT PUT YOUR NAME!
SECONDLY, YOU'RE DIGGING INTO MY BUSINESS!
I DO NOT LIKE THE WAY YOU'RE DOING THINGS!
GO AWAY! SCRAM! WHATSOEVER LIFELESS THANG!

_|_

2008-09-10T06:48:00.000-07:00

JTKH HAS A FEVER!! :(
I do not know why but it seems like my world's revolving all around him now. :(

2008-09-08T04:27:00.000-07:00

JTKH!! RAHHS!! I HATE YOU!
JTKH! IT IS SO OBVIOUS THAT YOU ARE AVOIDING ME LAA!!!
JTKH! YOU ARE SO ANNOYING!
SO IRRITATING!

JTKH! I THINK I DON'T KNOW YOU ANYMORE.. :(

2008-09-07T18:58:00.000-07:00

Can things ever go back to the way it was..?
When it was ' oh so simple ', carefree and easy..
Where we played video games instead of mind games;
chasing instead of running away;
laughing instead of crying;

If time could ever turn itself around,
I would pray hard and hope that the same mistakes will never be made again.
I will try my best to make it right once again.

2008-09-07T07:41:00.000-07:00

Latest Update:
I feel scared..
Really scared..

I am moodless, nothing excites me anymore.
Nothing interests me anymore.
My heart's an empty hole now.

2008-09-05T09:20:00.000-07:00

People always said that there are two sides to a mirror.
The reflection and the real you.

The reflection tends to show how beautiful you are, how slender your figure is. Yet, it can also show the ugly side of you, your breakouts, your wrinkles.etc
Unlike these, the real you does not act according to how your reflection reflects you to be.
Contradicting? VERY. (:

Today, I learnt a really valuable lesson. Do not think that your reflection is the real you.
For instance, Gerard. Gees.. I thought he was all nice and stuffs. He was really nice to talk to online and offline. I knew he IS an MCP (Male Chauvanistic Pig). But I never knew he was suffering from MCPS. (Male Chauvanistic Piggish SYNDROME). Tsk!
I felt that eating with him was really degrading. It is and it will always be.

On the other hand, Jason - He was my friend for quite a few months. Well, many things happened between us, I then begun to dislike him a lot, I gradually found him pretty much of an irritant to me. But guess what? He is actually a really nice guy. Seriously. I never knew there was this side of him. He was really sweet and nice, listened to my sobbings and whinings, bought green tea for me ( which I do not even drink -.-) yea but thanks! He drove me around and drove me home, compared to the MCP...

which is better..?
Find out on your own. Although one's rich and one's not. One's pretty good looking (I would say a little above average), One's quite average looking. But I realised things aren't always what they seem on the surface. I have been a shallow tortoise all along.

2008-09-03T07:47:00.001-07:00

SHAWN said that NS taught him to stick with his brothers!
SO, he decided to leave his sisters behind -- Berlin, Tricia and I! *hehs!*
EVIL!!!

You wanna know what is the consequences of leaving his sisters behind?
HIS BROTHERS LEFT WITH HIS SISTERS! MWAHAHHAHAHAS!!
WOOHOOS!!

SHAWN! BEAT THAT!! :D
nannynanny poopoo! :P

2008-09-02T20:03:00.000-07:00

Gees..
I miss every little thing that I had..
Every little thing that I held onto.

Now, I've let go and I just can't accept the fact that well, I am all alone again.
In a dumb class, DUMB LIFE.
Everything's dumb!

RAHHS!! I feel like screaming, but who's gonna hear me anyway, gees.
I depressingly feel like walking out what I am in right now.

SIGHS!
@*%#!!!

2008-09-01T02:04:00.001-07:00

I know I've not been blogging regularly recently.
So.. here's just a little something.

What Phoebe Cheong Rui Fang Means

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.

Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.

Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.

You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.

Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.

You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.

Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

a little penny for a thought..

why is it so that the people that you like tend to brush past you like the wind...?

but the people that you do not like tend to be twirling around you..?

2008-08-26T09:04:00.000-07:00

I am so scared.
I have a fear of making new friends now.
What if they don't like me?
What if they wanna smack me with their laptops?
What if they hate me?
What can i do to make them like me?
SIGHS.
There are just so many thoughts running through my head.

2008-08-25T08:53:00.000-07:00

I feel really bad deep inside.
I wanna say sorry but it can never come out of my own lips.
I know I have hurt someone who has treated me as a friend for 12 years.
It is way longer than anybody's love story or whatever toy story, blah...

I just..don't know why I said those things. I could have kept it in me and let it slowly creep away.
I could have just left things the way it should be.
I could have ranted it to a wall and pull through everything.
But no, I couldn't help it.
I couldn't control my emotions.
They overwhelmed me that I find it so hard to breathe.
It chokes me so hard, that I had to pull it off.

Serves me right. But still, I've gotta get my ownself right back on the track before I even deserve these friends out there. They don't deserve a loser like me to be their friend. They dont.
I really wanna change myself. Other than that, we'll put it to later ok?

2008-08-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

I think what Grace was trying to say about was totally about me last night.
Have faith to understand.

Take up the faith to understand what is going on in MY own world now, my life, everything.
I really wanna try to understand what is going with me right now.
I know you guys think that I am really fucked up whatsoever.
Like " STOP BEING A BITCH! " or "YOUR FRIENDS ARE WAY BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU!"

But I don't know why..I just don't understand why everytime I think that my life's fine, everything turns to all gloomy and dark once again. I feel really bad and really ashamed of myself.

I remembered the first time I told Q I wanna smoke. She offered me a cigarette. I felt really excited! Full of emotions raging in me, like - THIS IS WHAT I WANNA DO! THIS IS WHAT I AM GONNA DO!

The next few frequent times when Ragu, Kenny and Q start going out with me to smoke, I start to feel really useless, like when you're smoking, you feel all mighty, in control of your own world. But when you have finished smoking, it is as though " Why did I wanna smoke in the first place? Is that all that I can do in my life? I never used to be this way, what is going on...?"

Nobody knew what I was going through. NO ONE! EXCEPT THESE RP CLASSMATES OF MINE. I guess I do keep secrets really well. But I feel so useless now. I feel like blaming it on everything I have done, like " OH! SMOKING CAUSED ME TO LOSE MY FRIENDS!" ; "PROCRASTINATING MADE ME LOSE MY FRIENDS!"
I really want to do that, but I know it is something I should not do.

I cannot get you guys to forgive me because I cannot even forgive myself, neither can you guys even comprehend what is on my mind, how then...to forgive?

I feel really empty and lost inside. Not because I have lost a friend or whatsoever, but even before I was preparing to lose a friend, I felt emptiness in me.

Have you ever tried stretching a rubber band? The more you stretch it, The more you hope to take it to its limits, It feels the pain and soon it breaks.
I am like a rubber band waiting for its breaking point.
Waiting for a day when I can finally break myself free from what I cannot understand and maybe by then I will be too tired. I will just see myself wasting away.

You guys feel a different pain from what I feel, yet you guys say " Oh I understand, I feel your pain" BULLCRAP! Hold onto your sympathetic words for I do not need your pity, neither do I need your sympathy.
You have not gone through what I've been through, so don't say you understand! It stabs me like a thousand knives into my lingering soul...

2008-08-21T07:31:00.000-07:00

Gees.. now I am being labelled as a great liar?
Nice.
tsk. I don't wanna bother anymore. It is indeed between Natasha and I anyway. Why do you people even bother? Get a life! Don't you guys have anything better to do?

Well, I have tonnes of things to do so while you continue your stupid blabberings and complains, bitchings of whatsoever, I am just going to continue enjoying my holidays and wait for school to reopen soon (:

Ok, drawing away from the current topic, CELLGROUP WITH E222 TOMORROW! :D
I can't wait for it! Though I kinda have a feeling that I would be erms..kinda lost on my own..
MAYBE JUST A LITTLE. I'll try recalling my way back there.

Tuition at Steven's Road is on tomorrow! MOOLAHS COMING IN! :D
Working on an event on saturday and sunday! MORE MOOLAHS COMING IN!
I am so happy that my life is getting better and better each and every day! (:

Thats all for now!

W45C's outing on Monday -- Wild Wild Wet.. But I really don't know if I should go for it. Sighs..

2008-08-21T02:12:00.001-07:00

I have been having overwhelming responses to why I am not hanging out with Natasha anymore.
Really, I am tired.
No, it isn't a sequel to The Hills, whatsoever anon.
This is for real.
I am tired. Really.

Oh, perhaps you would not remember this. But I remembered clearly when you and cassandra did not hang out for quite a while? You admitted to me that you did ever backstabbed me before. With a reason like " oh, you can't expect me to say that you're OH SO GOOD when cassandra's backstabbing you right?" I took quite a time to accept it though and no, I haven't really backstabbed you before other than the times when I do complain a little when you brushed me off aside.

I really want to try to understand why things would turn out like that, but I guess I will never understand you -- my friend. Though we have been friends for years, 12 years to be exact. I can't seem to understand you at all. Maybe I am not good enough to be your friend.

But for one thing I am clear and sure about. I am not doing this because you're in ITE or whatsoever. It doesn't matter to me. Seriously, If it matters to me, I would not have encouraged you to study for your O levels. I would not have listened to the problems you have in school like your class representative being such an ass and blaa..

I dislike it for it. I know I have indeed said something really bad in the past like I hate ITE students, really, I don't now. I think it has been really childish of me doing that. But yes, I still do hate it for what it has done. But no, I don't hate ITE students anymore. If you think you're comparable to it, let me tell you this -- It got into ITE with an N level Cert. If you think that you're worth comparing with it, carry on. But it is way lower than any one of us can go. In my eyes, you're someone who can really shine if you want to unlike it, a useless piece of crap. Who on Earth would then compare a piece of crap to someone who can outshine him? Gees. It would be ridiculous, isn't it?

I know you have been trying really hard to accept me for what I am too. I know it is tiring. So, yea, you can stop now. Really. I ain't a charity object for you to put your kindness and charitable acts on. I don't want to go on feeling really inferior to who you are.

Honestly, if you ever wondered why I am always boasting about what I am good at, it is always because I feel really inferior to you. This is really deep down from me. I am not avoiding you for what has happened on National Day or whatsover. Maybe yes, I am a little mad about what happened but I have given a really good thought about this.
I really don't want this friendship to carry on, it just makes me feel really tired, always trying to find something that I can be good at and you're not.

Maybe I am just not the right friend for you, just carry on with your life. Really.
I just really hope that people would stop comparing me to you.
I just wanna live my life for who I am. Not someone who's known as Natasha's shadow.

I know, you can think that these are bullshit. Go ahead, I can't stop what you're thinking about.
But this has been really what I wanted to say for a really long time ever since like after O levels.
I just do not know how to put it across to you. Now, I have finally plucked up some courage to tell this to you, and anon, yes. We are indeed better off without each other. (:

2008-08-20T07:18:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,
I am really sick of life. Let's say GAME'S really OVER. Gees. I don't wanna be moving about in circles any longer.
Life isn't a carousle, like seriously.
But somehow we get through certain things that we don't wanna go through
we feel the pinch, the ache.

There it is! VIOLA! The dark alleys of life. You practically do not see anything else except yourself.
It is as though the lights have snuffed out on you.
Nobody's gonna stay by your side.

Everyone has their own views and opinions. I do too. I choose to turn a deaf ear at times. I don't really bother. But at times, it hits me real hard that I hope that I will never am going to be brought back into the past?

I really wanna put the past behind, leave my friends behind. Lead a new life.
Can i?
Can i ever be a new Phoebe? Maybe not.
Why not think up of an alias for me huhs..
Gees.. I don't wanna be Phoebe anymore.
I really don't wanna be.. I am really tired of it. It feels as though I am stuck in a shell. A shell that has not been cleaned and polished for years. In comparation to a dusty, old, ragged doll that a girl leaves behind in her storeroom. I feel really tired.. I AM.
No more about ITs, no more about brainless beauty, no more about your ordinary ruggamuffins on the streets.
I WANNA CHANGE! I really do. Maybe there will be a drastic change to come. I really hope that I can feel happy all over again.

2008-08-20T02:24:00.000-07:00

I don't know why..

I sorta just wanna find out more I guess.

But the things stated here seems really brief which I have already know.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2008-08-17T01:24:00.000-07:00

GAME'S OVER.
Go hang around your stupid boyfriend.
In reality, I don't miss you at all! :)

2008-08-16T09:15:00.001-07:00

I'm still skeptical when it comes to LOVE.
Gees, but anyway!
A QUICK UPDATE OF WHAT HAS HAPPENED THESE FEW DAYS! :D

I went to Tekong recently, It was fun and YES! I WANNA GO AGAIN! I wonder if Gerard can invite me to go along with him..=x
HEHES!! :D

I have decided to stay in E222! NOT MOVING ANYMORE! I PROMISE YOU GUYS OK! :D
I'M NOT LEAVING! AND SAMUEL! I'M NO BIMBO!! RAWRS!! smack your head ar!

I've been looking for a job these few days! Any one wanna hire me? Hehe! SIGHS! I've got LOADS and TONNES of bills to settle! :(
DADDYGOD!!! SAVEEEE ME!!! :(

other than that, I am still pondering over whether to go for class chalet or not. I mean, it feels really embarassing to go for it when I did not pay for it. Well, You see, EVERYONE paid for it.. EXCEPT ME! Gees! If I go, I'll be the girl living with the thickest ELEPHANT skin ever! GEES! LIKE UHMS..500KMS THICK! EWWW!! GROSS!

So, I guess I am not going. I don't know but Berlin keeps asking me to go, even Shawn..SIGHS!

Oh Yea, Have been hanging out with my piano, Kenvin and other blahbaroo stuffs. Yea.. It IS kinda boring to be having holidays, and yes! I would definitely prefer the next semester to start soon. Yet, I guess I'll go to school with a rather bad fear in my heart that it is not going to turn out well. I don't know. I'll leave this to DaddyGod. He will help me through my next semester. I cannot imagine moving about school like a lost sparrow again. Gees! I have to make friends all over again. Do you know how bad I am at making friends? GEES! I SUCK AT IT OK!

But looking at the brighter side, At least I saved dramaramamama for the other classes, and I saved serenity and warfare for the other classes too! :) ENJOY RP STUDENTS! For they are coming to your classes REAL SOON! SHOW PREMIERS ON 1ST OF SEPTEMBER! :D

Anyway, Yea. That's about it! HAVE FUN!
ENJOY THIS POEM THAT I HAVE FOR YOU GUYS! :D
I caught the literature flu from Stacey! HEHE!!

Your eyes are as wide as the moon
Your face is as shiny as the pot I use to cook my MAGGI MEE
Your pig trotters entices me
O Romeo, Romeo! wherefore art thou Romeo?

This is definitely just meant to be a joke! Get a life if you only have insults on how poor my literature is! :@

2008-08-08T22:10:00.000-07:00

CLASS OUTING LAST NIGHT! :D
HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY NIGHT!
Daryl treated us to a sixers! hehes!
Jonas flew kite! Ben left half way through!
Bringing Jing Wei, Roderick and Jun Liang with him to watch a TV prank!
HEHS! Murphy, Daryl and I ended up playing UNO!
MWAHAHAHAHAS!
I AM REALLY GOOD IN THIS GAME! :D

After the guys came back, we played DOGVILLE!
Murphy's a dog pound dog!
He has " MY DOG POUND, MY HOME" all over his face!!
Roderick's the TYCO DOG!
Effing lucky can? He keeps gaining territories everywhere and he opened alot of trashcans!
Daryl's the " I WANT TO FIGHT DOG!"
hahas! Keep attacking the other dogs under the influence of Murphy! HAHAHAS!
Junliang's the "SILENT KILLER DOG!"
He was silent throughout the whole game! Hoping that no one will catch him into the dog pound! Hoping none of us will go over and attack him! HAHAHAS!

As for Jing Wei and I.. I don't know.. But i thought that my dog was really bimbotic! T.T!
It's so Paris Hilton like! POODLE! AND IT'S IN PINK! OMG!

After that, it was UGLYDOLL! :D
Murphy said I very aunty! HAHAHAS!
I grabbed the most cards in the first round! HAHA! 13 CARDS! omg!! =x
They say it is all under the influence of shopping too much! RAWRS!
WHAT SNATCH TAO GAY? WTH!!
Next time I shall purposely let them! MWAHAHAHAS!!

Ok! PEEK A PICTURE TIME! :D

PS: OH YEA! JUNLIANG GOT FIRST IN THE NDP PHOTOGRAPHY COMPETITION IN OUR SCHOOL! gees! So cool! I wanna join too! Who's going to watch NDP! CALL ME OK!! I wanna go watch!!! :(

2008-08-06T20:57:00.000-07:00

I AM SO HAPPY!!
I AM SO GLAD THAT THERE ARE SCHOLARSHIPS FOR CCC STUDENTS! :D
Its the MICA scholarship!!

I finally can go overseas to study without worries!
I am so gonna work hard towards my dream! I must be a 4 pointer next year and the next next year!
I wanna go to either Brooklyn College or USC!! hehe

I have been planning so much for my future. It is time to work on my plan! I cannot afford to lose my one and only opportunity to go to the States anymore! FAIL TO PLAN, PLAN TO FAIL!

I have finally planned! TIME TO WORK ON IT! :D
GOOD LUCK TO ME!! haha

2008-08-06T09:36:00.000-07:00

OMGGG!
I JUST REALISED THIS!
REXAZ...
errr..ok..nothing to say la!

MAGNUM FORCE..
HOT! OMGGG!!

They are like the hottest cheerleading team among the 5 polytechnics! Rexaz can never beat such a good, strong team mans! ZOMG! They are like flying and tossing everywhere!!

But, if I were to compare Magnum force to uhhh...some cheerleading team in some college in the states, Magnum is just so so.. HAHAS! REALLY! Although they are like madness! But like uhmms..how about USC cheerleaders! Magnum cannot be compared to them laaa!

HAHAHS! BUT ACTUALLY.. how to compare huhs anyways..o.o GEES.. never mind! HAHAHAS!!

CHEERLEADING'S A BIMBOTIC SPORT BUT I LOVE IT! :D
Can I cheerlead too? HAHAS!! Minus the cheering for Singapore team part. GEES! (:

2008-08-06T08:25:00.000-07:00

WRITER'S BLOCK!
HELP NEEDED!

O.O

tell me what you want me to blog about ok? :D

2008-08-03T20:21:00.000-07:00

I really long to be back in E222.
I feel really foolish. I should NOT have left! I SHOULD HAVE STAYED!
NO MATTER WHAT! I SHOULD HAVE STAYED!
I should not have left.. REALLY!
Now I really feel like crying. Through Grace, I was brought closer to God.
Through Grace, I learnt really alot.
Without her, without E222, I no longer feel myself anymore. I REALLY FEEL VERY LOST! :(
It is as if my spiritual identity has been stolen.

Hopping from church to church I want no more. I feel sick and tired of it. New Creation is my last stop! I don't wanna hop anymore. I am not a bunny! I want to stay in CHC! I WANT TO STAY IN E222! All that I am afraid of now is that they would accept me no longer. :(

Can I really go back to Him?

2008-08-03T18:01:00.001-07:00

Gees.. I realised something when I woke up early this morning! I am glad I have finally realised that as a matter of fact, I should be concentrating on my studies. NOT SOME STUPID DUMBFUCKS. So.. bye idiots! Hello to books! (:

Stop wasting my time. You guys aint worth it. Gees! I shall just concentrate on studying and prepare to go to NY, Brooklyn. Other than that..
GEES! It will be a waste of time.
I just want to meet my goal now, which, is to be a fashion journalist. Other than that, I AM NOT INTERESTED ABOUT IT! So.. gees.. stay away! :D

2008-08-03T08:29:00.000-07:00

GET A LIFE FUCKING LOSER!
YOU'RE ACTING LIKE A TOTAL OVERSIZED FAT BITCH! TSK!

Hello, you're calling me proud? GEES! I merely got a B! Like what the hell? I was just curious to find out how much you got. TSK! WHATEVER. People who drop out from polytechnics most probably all do act in a certain cynical manner. GEES!

By the way, Look who IS the one acting all proud first? TSK! Getting an A for enterprise then trying to ask me what's my grade? GEES! YOU SHOULD SERIOUSLY LOOK AT THE MIRROR BEFORE CALLING ME PROUD! FAT ASS! SON OF A BITCH! TSK! I am so pissed by all the fats in you! GET A LIFE! Tsk!

You merely just got what you should get! TSK! gees!
BY THE WAY, IF YOU DO NOT COMPREHEND WHAT I MEAN, DON'T EFFING ACT SMARTER THAN ME, BECAUSE YOU AREN'T? HELLO! LOOK WHO'S TALKING! A DROPOUT FROM POLYTECHNIC! TSK! You merely just got what you deserved FAT ASS!
For the third time, you seriously need to get a life! HAHS!
By the way, I EFFING WORSHIP THE SAME GOD AS YOU! I DID NOT EFFING INSULTED YOUR GOD WHICH IS BY THE WAY ALSO MY GOD! I INSULTED YOU FAT ASS! Maybe you're too dumb to even comprehend! gees!

DUMBFUCK! Tsk! You're acting like a 7 year old kid who does not know a single thing and yet shouting at me " YOU CAN INSULT ME! BUT NOT INSULT MY GOD!" HAHA! HOW HILARIOUS! GEES! If I insulted your GOD! (DUMBFUCK!) I would not have said " GO GET YOUR GOD TO HELP YOU! Was it insulting enough? gees! HAHS! Since you always say that OH! GOD HELPED TO GET GOOD GRADES! So why not ask HIM to help you SEE your grades?

Maybe you're just too dumb to comprehend what I said. JUST FUCKING DIG A HOLE AND HIDE YOURSELF IN! HA HA HA! FAT ASS! tsk! Perhaps, your brains do not contain much other than " I LOVE YOU!" WHAT A FUCKING MANWHORE! tsk!

TSK! I do pity you for the emptiness in your brain. Really, just go face your books and spend a few more years with Education before even trying to say that I INSULTED MY OWN GOD! FUCKTARD! tsk! Acting all holy " OH! MUMMY!! SOMEONE INSULTED MY GOD! BOOHOOS!"

2008-08-01T03:54:00.000-07:00

Scars..External scars can be removed by exfoliating, removing the dead cells from our skin. After a short while, the scar disappears. The pain you felt for that certain moment disappears with it too. It is as if all pain has gone and you feel all happy all over again.

How about the scars that we have in us? Can they ever be removed? Can there ever be a time when you do not have to feel pain any longer?

There was this guy; he had a really tanned skin, really sincere eyes. He looked like a miracle maker, Some One who turns all your hopes and dreams into reality. He told me “Buy this bottle of cream! Let me demonstrate it to you! Every day after you bathe, use it once, your scars will be gone after a week.

In a society like this, people tend to do things to satisfy peoples’ needs. They somehow always try to make life look a lot better than it seems. Yet, deep down in our hearts, we know it isn’t really like that. We go through pain and sufferings silently. Not making a sound/ uttering a word, the people around us think that life seems really simple and easy for us. We look really happy every day and that is all that matters to them. It is as if, I do not show my anger, my pain, you do not care. It does not bother or matter to you anyway.

Can I ever not have to feel THAT pain in me? Gees…I know I’m being a real bitch here. I know I am acting as if I am the only one who is feeling the pain and it is as if the Earth revolves around me. I know you guys out there would be going “Get a life! You ain’t the only one who feels hurt, how about those who feel hurt because they have lost their loved ones?” I know I am acting all selfish and blah. But I feel really miserable on the inside. Can anyone ever hear my cry? …

2008-07-29T07:45:00.000-07:00

Sorry, haven't really updated much about yesterday.As you can see, I went for rock climbing yesterday. Well, I did not climb, kinda just accompanied zee to rock climbing as I did not want to go home so early. Yeaps! THANK YOU MANY MANY FOR ACCOMPANYING ME YESTERDAY ZEE! *hugs!*
Oh yea! I got to know who is RENA yesterday! She is my new friend! HAHA! HOT, HOT, SEXY RENA! HAHA!! Rudy aka Riff's favourite! HAHA!! :D

Oh, other than that..pretty nothing much happened.

I had science UT today, and it was EASY PEASY! I KNOW I KNOW! You guys so gonna say " gees! since when did Phoebe found sciend easy peasy?" hehs! Well, I studied really hard for it ok! I combined all the ppts together to form ONE PPT! HAHS! UNITED THEY STAND! It really helped me alot better. Except for some calculations, I guess I will still have problem with it.

Oh yea, uhms..well, my two friends quarrelled today. I could not help it but I feel really bad shouting at shawn. Well, because uhms.. I did not mean it. yea. SORRY GUYS. But you two should really make up big time! :)
I will treat you to gummy bears ok! :D

oh yea! PS: THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED TODAY!

4 blonde idiots playing wahjong. xD

2008-07-27T23:24:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt like your life seems so beautiful
too beautiful that some things should rather be kept unknown.

Somehow, there was this little boy, he used to feel that life was the most beautiful thing God has given to him.
He had the happiest, loving family.
He had everything he wanted. He never had anything to worry about.
He thought " no matter how bad the World is to me, I have my family to turn to."
Soon.. things began to unfold. He grew up and got to know more and more things about his family members.
His sister was a liar, a full time drug addict.
His mum used to be a shoplifter.
His dad earns money by peddling drugs to people on the street.
He could not withold any longer.

He somehow felt that God has foresaken him. God gave him not only the worst family in the whole wide world, God brought him pain, hurt and confusion.

If only he had never opened that very email. Things would have remained the same. Things wouldn't have changed.

Though their love for him has never changed. But...
CAN YOU IMAGINE KNOWING THE TRUTH,
YET KNOW THAT THEY STILL LOVE YOU?

this little boy is a friend of mine. A REALLY CLOSE FRIEND.
soy yo

2008-07-27T17:54:00.000-07:00

Hopeless
A single word that you would not expect from me, from me
I take it like it’s coming from an enemy

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this

I’ve been thinking, take me now, I’m in too far
This could be my last goodbye
You could stay, I’ll be alright
I’ve been thinking, take me now, I’m in too far

♥♥

2008-07-27T07:21:00.000-07:00

" I'll love you till the end of time and space!"
"I'll walk with you no matter rain or shine!"
"For You, I'll take the stars off the skies!"
WHATS NEXT!

GUYS ARE REALLY GREAT LIARS! TSK! I don't trust anyone ESPEICALLY GUYS anymore!
Say all you want! I don't wanna hear anymore. I am sick and tired of it!
Really!
GUYS! GET A LIFE! tsk!

2008-07-26T05:51:00.000-07:00

PICTURES

let them speak for themselves! (:GUINNESS 9 BALL TOUR! :D

The " play yourself" people

BLACK FOXES! Omg! They are seriously hot! GUYS YOU OWE IT TO ME! MWAHAHAHS! :D

This guy was way better than the black foxes! He played really well!
It pretty much shows that pool is a guy game. TILL...-.-

THIS L.A.P APPEARED! Tsk! I don't even know where he came from. Maybe some chapalang country, cause he don't look Singaporean. He plays really swift and whatsoever, but throughout the whole game only got in 3-4 balls. HELLO L.A.P! GO HOME! -.- tskkkTHIS IS NOT THE SAME GUY. I don't really know who is he, but not bad. Quite a good player too.

MORE OF BLACK FOXES! :D

1ST FEW PICS: The tentage outside requires you to just buy $10 worth of guinness stout in order to get in. YOU NEED A TICKET. Therefore, I only took the outside and decided to watch it on a small screen tv in VELOCITY! :D

Next few pics: Somehow they said the more signatures you have on the ball, the more Guinness will be donating, I SIGNED IT! :D hehs! My favourite number! 7! :D

As usual, Singapore never gets into the finals. -.- If it does, I'll really laugh! TSK! You will see pretty much filipinos and taiwanese people on the board. They're really good compared to Singaporeans you know. Well, when you see Singaporeans play only, You'll go " this guy's great!" Till you see taiwanese and filipinos play, you'll go " AWESOME!" xD

2008-07-26T02:42:00.000-07:00

For the first time, I feel so sad.
I feel that I am pretty pathetic.
For the first time, I felt how it feel like to have money yet no friends.

I feel so alone. SO ALONE.
It feels as though I am stuck somewhere cold and alone.
Even money cannot fill my empty heart..

2008-07-25T08:01:00.000-07:00

What's with you and the world?
WHY AM I ALWAYS THE INFERIOR ONE?
GEES!
Compared to you, I may be nothing!
NOTHING AT ALL!
BITCH! I HATE YOU!

2008-07-24T21:10:00.000-07:00

HELPPPPP~!!!
I feel so sick and tired of school.
I feel as though its pretty much a boring place to go to.
I seem to be entertained by what they do.
Other than that?
BORINGGGG!!
I don't like school!
TYPICAL RP STUDENTS!
TYPICAL _____! tsk tsk!

At least I am glad I am in a polytechnic compared to that S.O.B! He's suffering in NS! Tsk! It seems to give me little comfort. tsk -.-

2008-07-23T17:43:00.000-07:00

PROUDLY PRESENTING...

BIMBOS VS AH LIANS!!

It is so funny you gotta watch it!

CRYSTAL'S REALLY FUNNY! I LOVE IMITATING HER! HAHAS!!
"Welcome to saturday night live..with ...CRYSTAL!!

teehees! :D

REMEMBER TO WATCH IT YEA! AND HAVE FUN! :D haha!

2008-07-21T07:50:00.000-07:00

I really love and miss running on the track.
Even if it makes me feel really tired. I really want to do something that I really love.
Yet, at times I feel that some people tend to stop me from doing what I want to do. Stop me frim achieving my goals. I want to run as fast as my friends. I want to catch up with them.

Yet, at times, I feel that people are pulling me back.
GEES.. YOU'RE THE ONE!
I HATE YOU BITCH!
I REALLY DO!

2008-07-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

When would it be?
will it ever be the time when you realise im no you?
I don't speak like you.
I don't act like you.
I'm not you.
Yet, I feel like a puppet on strings.

I behave the way you want me to; unwillingly
I speak the way you want me to; unwillingly
I walk the way you want me to; unwillingly

Have i been your shadow all along?
Have i no voice to speak up on my own?
I am left in the cold, speechless.
unknowingly, we have all been trying to fit into the other's footsteps
even though when we don't fit in

secretly,
I HATE TO LIVE WITH YOU.
I HATE TO BE A PART OF YOU.

2008-07-19T04:01:00.001-07:00

HEY GUYS! :D
I finally cut my hair!

Thanks to Pearlyn and Tricia, I am really glad to have a good haircut! TEEHEES! :D
I used to always feel really sad after cutting my hair, but I feel really happy today! Thanks to Pearlyn for introducing me to CHAPTER 2! It's a great place! The people are really nice there!
Although I did not manage to look for Jay over there as i felt pretty awkward. But I seriously feel that the guys there are really great at cutting hair! They give you what you want and make it look really great! I shall go there to cut my hair next time! NO MORE RUINING OF HAIR!

By the way, for your information, the 28 bucks spent was really worth it ok. Their service was great and they wash your hair before cutting, rinse after cutting and blow dry. Usually when you look on the windows of many salons, they tend to just say " cut, wash & blow dry" TSK. It is indeed cut, wash and just blow dry. But what you get in CHAPTER 2 is a whole lot new experience and it is fun! It feels like a WHOLE NEW YOU coming out of the salon ok!

SO.. DO TRY IT OUT! TRUST ME! :)

ps: tricia! THANKS FOR ACCOMPANYING ME TO CUT MY HAIR EHS! < <3>

2008-07-17T01:08:00.000-07:00

MY VERY OWN NEW NIKE+ MINI!! :D
Its really great knowing that my nuffnang ads are pretty interesting! Teehees!!

CUTE RIGHT? You cannot really see how nice it is! But it will be really fun when you get to experience it. :D

Nike is the official sponsor for the HUMAN RACE, 10K! COOL RIGHT?! YES IT IS! Don't deny! HAHA! Although, I do not really support Nike, It is seriously cool to be actually having some fun with this java thingy here!! So , what you're waiting for? JUST DO IT! LIKE NIKE SAYS SO! :D

CLICK THE AD NOW! OK!! :D

2008-07-16T07:33:00.000-07:00

Do singaporeans seriously do not have any creativity at all?
WHY BE SO SIMPLE MINDED AND NOT THINK OUT OF THE BOX?
First, Singaporean dramas are a total look alike compared with Korean, Taiwanese and American dramas.
The endings are all the same, someone dies, someone gets married, Family reunion.. ANYTHING NEW? GEES! My toes are laughing.

Now, whats next? Copying campaign advertisments, passing them off as national day music videos? GEES.. I don't see anything special about this year's national day music video. Have singaporeans really run out of ideas?
Is creativity nurtured or in-born?

Why people from other countries can be alot more creative than us?
Are we singaporeans inferior compared to people of other countries?
Is that why these figgin' China people are laughing at us for being dumb?
TSK! NOW I SERIOUSLY HATE TO SAY ONE THING.
BUT I REALLY WISH I CAN.
it will always be a secret. gees...

2008-07-15T06:48:00.000-07:00

I do not know why, I kinda feel sick and tired of going to school.
Give me another reason to go to school.
A valid and a lovely one to make me go to school.

DEAR GOD, I MISS COMING FORTH TO YOU.
Lead me to a church where I would want to stay in.
i miss you daddy God.

2008-07-12T08:59:00.000-07:00

Nicole Richie is soon coming up with a new TV Series on her book " THE TRUTH ABOUT DIAMONDS!" :D

Pretty cool huhs! I am so excited to find out what is going to be all about. GEES! But I've got no E! Entertainment channel. SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU DO SEE IT ON TV! :D

As I was growing up,
I heard a small little voice
it told me " girl, you're the one for me"
these were the words
i thought had depicted my story
but no, i realised things were no more than what you see in a regular movie

xoxo ♥,
a lovelorn girl

2008-07-10T08:07:00.000-07:00

I loved you more than myself
I loved you more than I thought the skies could carry
I loved you more than anyone ever knew
YET, RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT..
The very moment, we are apart...
I have to let go
and SAY GOODBYE

Love,
a lovelorn girl

School was rather great today and the past few days. It is fun disturbing Shawn despite knowing the fact that it is mean and bad of us to do so. I hope he does not take it to heart! We're all the PSK CLIQUES! TEEHEES!!

Oh yea, We had fire drill yesterday and as we embark on our journey to the rugby football field, Shawn happily PS-ED US! RAWRRS! He views his life more important than us! NICE FRIEND!
Not caring about us, leaving us alone, he left us with a remark " You three girls! BTH! YOU ALL ARE POKEMONS! YOU KNOW WHY? YOU KNOW HOW TO SCREECH!"

It shows how we love and care for each other you see! By being mean and all "lovey dovey" mean monsters to each other! HAHAS! By making really casual remarks yet laughing at them.

Today, Shawn said Tricia and I were " tehhing" and I could not comprehend what he meant by
tehhing" and therefore, I concluded that " tehhing" means he has said something wrong and we go " tehhh!!" HAHAHAS!! THE SOUND YOU HEAR IN A GAMESHOW WHEN SOMEONE ANSWERS WRONGLY! Oh! I just realised it sounds a little like " teh tarik" too! HAHAS! Shawn is such a failure! I cannot comprehend certain words he use at times! HAHAS!

Oh! Shawn thought he was really funny when ShaunShaun said he only bought the buspass and Shawn said " so how to make the bus score?"
-.-! I AM FEELING EMO NOW. So all the hahas out there are for you to laugh at. (:

Hope you guys ain't as sad as me. BE CHEERY! Its easy...*for real*

2008-07-07T18:30:00.000-07:00

Gees... I feel sick and tired of coming to school!
When are the UTs going to end?
I feel rather stupid. As though the whole world is laughing at me. TSK!
Who would ever thought I would be in RP?

Murphy must be laughing at me too. TSK! No one would have expected this. Maybe, everyone else did except me. GEES. I feel as if my life's ending in this fucking stupid school.
School isn't the right thing for me now. I guess.. GEES! I cannot imagine this if I were to transfer over to MI now. Things would still be the same. It would still be as bad as this. But yet, think again. At least people like Murphy would say " HAHAS! PEEPS WHO GO TO MI ARE PEEPS WHO WANT TO GO TO JCs BUT THEY CANNOT MAKE IT!"
Rather than now, he's saying stuffs like "RP=HIGHEST NITEC!"

TSK! RP wasn't even one of my choice. I don't see whats the point of coming to school. -.-
I do not even see the purpose of coming to school anymore! Just to spend my days away? Maybe.. GEES. I feel as though someone needs to give a tight slap on my face.

2008-07-06T03:35:00.000-07:00

OMG! WHY AM I SO INTO PLASTIC GIRLS? GAHHHS!!
I always thought like " HOW NICE IT WOULD BE TO BE BORN WITH SOME THAI/ DUTCH/ PORTUGESE blood in me?

GEES..o.o I never realised these were all fake! TSK! like DAWN YANG?
ok.. I'm so not gonna add pepper & salt and fry some chapalang whatsoever.
BUT PARIS HILTON?!
MY HOLYFISHHEADBUNNEH!

CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS?!

Like I always thought Paris was this..

CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS HER?

WHAT A HORRIFIC SIGHT!! GAHHHS!! I SHOULD SERIOUSLY RE-CONSIDER PLASTIC SURGERY NOW. gees...

2008-07-05T20:44:00.000-07:00

PEEKAAAAS!!! :DD

2008-07-05T08:23:00.000-07:00

OMGGG!! I'LL MISS YOU NAT! :(
IT'LL BE MISERABLE WITHOUT YOU! TEEHEES!! YOUR BIRTHDAY! I'll promise you we'll have cookies and loads of fun! AND LOADS OF PICTURES OK! LOVE YOU!! (:

We met up today again as I had no tuition today. Ivy wanted to spend time with Gwen, so I am free. We met up, had lunch at Esteler (Far East). Oh! We saw ___ today. Here's what happened.

NAT: ISN'T THAT ____?
Me: errr..that girl has ____-ish face but no ____ish hair..
NAT: BUT THAT IS ____!! RIGHT?
Me: OH! YES! THAT IS ____!!

HAHAS!! SUPER HILARIOUS.

OH YEA. We saw CC too. CC isn't as pretty as I thought. GEES. Average looking girl with tonnes of Photoshop. TSK. GUYS ARE SERIOUSLY DUMB. TSK!

By the way, here's what we did today. Strutted our stuffs from City Hall MRT station to Bread Talk, holding the bag in the " bitch" style, had 12 stares. Slacked at Mac's and played with my webcam a little, peeked at people's friendsters and stuffs. Walked about City Hall. Watched Fireworks, Packet mee goreng from Lau Pa Sat, walked down to Raffles Place to eat it and we train-ed home! :D

I HAD LOTS OF FUN!! I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO THAT FUCKING STUPID SCHOOL! NEITHER DO I WANT TO SEE THOSE FUCKED UP PEOPLE! WHAT THE TOOT!

DEAR BITCH, I KNOW YOU'RE LOOKING AT MY BLOG, AND I DON'T CARE! BITCH ABOUT ME FOR ALL I CARE. FOR ONE DAY I AM REALLY SURE I'LL RIP YOUR MOUTH APART! FUCKING STUPID FAT WHORE! DON'T ACT AS IF YOU'RE ALL HOLY AND SHIT! BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT! I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANY FURTHER! I HAVE ENOUGH! IF YOU WANT TO! MONDAY SETTLE! SET?! FUCKING WHORE!

2008-07-04T18:46:00.001-07:00

I skipped school yesterday! WOOHOOS!! I know peixin was lonely, but I really had to! I MISS NAT MORE THAN ANYTHING! MORE THAN THOSE PEEPS IN W45C! Somehow that simpleton friendship of ours means alot to me than anything else.

PS: IT IS PICTURE HEAVY FROM HERE ONWARDS. You can choose to alt+F4 if you want to. :D

FAIRUZ'S STALKER!!! He kept looking at us taking Fairuz's picture! xD Its kinda blur here..rawrs!

THE END! :D

2008-07-04T08:32:00.000-07:00

IT WAS ALL A GAME.
IT WAS ALL A LIE.
2 MONTHS OF WHATSOEVER CALLED LOVE.
7 MONTHS OF HURT AND PAIN.

i dont know what is going on in me anymore.
why do i detest guys so much now?

sighs..=/

2008-07-03T07:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEWIS! YOU'RE FINALLY 18! YAYS!
Ok! I don't really have much to blog..

BY THE WAY, I AIN'T RACIST. FLORA, YOU ARE! (:

2008-07-02T07:53:00.000-07:00

FLORA, I AM SOO SOO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU!
I seriously liked you alot? GEES! YOU'RE REALLY A GREAT FRIEND. AND A GREAT HYPOCRITE!
Why not tell everyone else what you've said? That I am disliked by everyone?

Gees! You knew I was way better at socialising with people. YOU KNEW! gees! I cannot believe this is what you have to do to gain pity and liking from people I don't really bother about? My friends aren't people who are of the same standards as you? GEES. Everyone treats you as a friend yet you stabbed me in the back? GEES! It doesn't hurt bitch because I ain't you!

You should totally get a life. Gees! My friends and I are so over you BITCH! You're so not in my circle of friends anymore. Oh, did I even treat you as a friend since the beginning? GEES. Cut out the drama. It is finally coming all to an end. It is time you should get off that damn stage. No epilogues, no more nonsense. I cannot take it anymore.

At times, FLORA..SERIOUSLY, I feel as though you belong in the IMH. Gees! You're seriously insane? GEES..It is not as if it is easier to gain attention that way? OH MY GAWDDD! WHATSOEVER! :D

GET YOUR DIRTY, GRUBBY PAWS OFF ME BITCH! :D

2008-07-02T07:37:00.000-07:00

Gees.. CAN I....

HAVE AVRIL LAVIGNE'S EYES AND NOSE?
Ashlee Simpson's lips..
Gisele Bundchen's flat tummy

or JLO'S figure's great too! :D

DIFFERENT PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT THINKINGS. So yea, my definition of beauty may not be what you define beauty to be like. So practical comments only. THANK YOU! (:

BY THE WAY...I REALLY THINK...HONESTLY.. REALLY REALLY HUMONGOUS, FAT GIRLS ARE SERIOUSLY A TURN OFF TO ME. Yet, thin girls arent. I don't know. I DON'T WANNA BE FAT. I HATE TO BE THEM! I DON'T WANNA BE LIKE THEM. With tonnes of spare tyres everywhere, cellulites and stuffs? Gees! A total disgust? I know you girls cannot help it? But whatsoever, just my own view. I don't wanna be size 0! Size 4 will do. (:

2008-07-01T08:06:00.000-07:00

KAYAKING TRAINING IS KILLING ME!! GAHHHS!!
I CANNOT WAIT FOR WATER TRAINING!

Well, for today's training, we jogged 3kilometeres outside school, 1.5km to the traffic light, do 10 push ups, jog to the bus stop, do 10 jumping jacks and we were made to do it all over again so 20 in total! We had to squeeze everyone in a bench seat at the bus stop and sing a birthday song for Kevin -- when it is not Kevin's birthday! HAHAS!! OMGAWWWD
We then had to jog back to school and do 10 push ups again and 10 sit ups. After that, we stretched a little and THE GAME IS ALL OVER.

It was rather fun as I got to know new friends like Kevin, Jeraldine, this hong kong girl, another girl who jogged beside me, she was really nice! She kept trying to push me on! TEEHEES!! :D Oh yea, not forgetting the malay guy who was right behind me. I felt really stress like he seems to be catching up with me rather fast.

Anyways, I am aching all over now, like an old lady. SIGHS! I hope to go for water training but mum don't let! RAWRS! SHE KEEPS SAYING WHAT IF I DROWN..TSKKK!! I ALREADY SAID THERE ARE SUCH THINGS AS LIFE JACKETS! RAWRS!! SO PISSED! I WANNA BE PART OF KAYAKING!!! :(

2008-06-28T06:32:00.000-07:00

Let me share something really funny with you guys! :D TEEHEES!
My brother and I were watching Lord of The Rings and I did not understand the whole show except for the really sad part that the elf girl had to part with Oregon? ( I don't know if his name should be spelt this way...) Anyways.. My brother decided to tell me the whole story.
So here it goes..

MY BROTHER: OK! There were 14 rings, 3 race - HUMANS, DWARVES, ELVES
Me: HUHS?! WHY CANNOT CHINESE, MALAY INDIAN?
MY BROTHER: YOU ARE IRRITATING! *walks off*

GEES!! I AM INFLUENCED BY SHAWN AND TERENCE!!! GAHHHS!! SHAWN AND TERENCE!! MY BROTHER THINKS YOU ARE IRRITATING! YAYS!! :DDD
haha!!

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2008-06-26T00:20:00.000-07:00

INTRODUCING....

VIMROD.COM!
WOOHOOS! :D
Well, Mabel and I were rather bored so we kinda checked it out! Here's some of the things that I found! :D

AREN'T THEY CUTE?! :D AWWWW...

Okey Dokey! So..you guys wanna know how to send these out?
TEEHEEES! :)

STEP 1:

Pick the catergory of cards you want to send out to your friend, lover.etc

STEP 2:

Pick the card you would like to send out. (:

Step 3:

Type in that Loving, Caring whatsoever message you have in mind and send it out!
VIOLA! YOUR VERY OWN CUTE VIDROM E-GREETING CARD! :D

HAVE FUN! (:

Click on the label picture on the top! It will directly link you to the website! (:

2008-06-25T18:32:00.000-07:00

PRETTY BOY PUT ON MAKE UP YESTERDAY IN SCHOOL! :D
teehees!!

Rather much of a prank did by DEAR W45C's students when we were bored! :D hahas!

psst!! I realised Terence looks like Sun Wu Kong ( Monkey God ) after the makeover! HAHAS!! OMGAWWD!! teehees!!
SECRETLY, WE LOVE THERESA ALOT! :D HAHAS!!

2008-06-25T07:36:00.000-07:00

I feel really deadbeat today! GEES! REALLY ONE EXHAUSTING DAY!
Time to hit the sack! :D

So..guys, before I leave...

CRAZY TAXI 2!!!
It is my latest "LOVE", "CRUSH".. whatever you call it! It gives me a sense of adrenaline rush! WOOHOOS!! hehes! If you ever see me playing it in class, PLEASE DO NUDGE ME! I cannot help it but I cannot stop playing it! hehes! I apologise for not listening to you guys during presentations okay! It is so effing rude! I KNOW IT! GAHHHS! BUT CANNOT HELP IT! SO INTO MY OWN WORLD!! :D
SO SMACK MY HEAD OR WHATSOEVER! TEEHEES!!

Some peek - a - boos here!

MY WORK HERE HAS BEEN DONE! DO CONTINUE TO VISIT MY BLOG! :D Remember to click on the ads! NOT THE BIG RED CROSS ONTOP!

You can if you want to, but it is not advisable by me! Just In Case your laptop or your desktop hangs! MWAHAHAHAHAS! - what a lie!

gees! OKAYS! ENOUGH OF MY NONSENSE AND SAYONARA!

TATA BOYS AND GIRLS! LADIES AND GENTLEMEN! GOOD NIGHT!
HAVE A GOOD REST TONIGHT! SWEET DREAMS!
We'll have fun again tomorrow! CIAOZ!

2008-06-24T19:39:00.000-07:00

It's unbelievable but I believed you
Unforgivable but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own
Alone

♥♥

2008-06-23T07:50:00.000-07:00

How to make a Phoebe

Ingredients:

1 part pride

3 part brilliance

1 part ego

Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little fitness if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

2008-06-22T19:10:00.000-07:00

DANCEHALL DK Natasja passed away last year? o.o
Gees! It came as a rather surprising news to me!
It is because the song sung by her --CALABRIA is a really nice song! :D
OMG!! Its totally all cool and it makes me dance off my feet! Gees! What a pity.
She died in a car crash when her career got to the highest peak. :(

REST IN PEACE! (:

LINDSAY OR MARILYN?

2008-06-22T06:48:00.000-07:00

LINDSAY OR MARILYN? That is the question! *teehees!!*

Well, many may have seen these pictures before, be it from the 80s or recently. Well, I say don't care who are they! These pictures were well taken! Looking at it in an artistic point of view of course! But they were taken for a reason!

For the very reason to preserve the poigant humanity of the real women -- Beautiful, but also fragile and flawed. Why do I say that women are flawed? It is because WHO IS EVER FLAWLESS? gees! Well, I feel that what Bert Stern ( the photographer) is trying to bring across to everyone is that women SHOULD be treated with utmost respect! They should be given what they are deserved. The freedom to stand up for their own rights.

In many countries all over the world, the number of women abused is increasing unknowingly! We may be hanging out on the streets, drinking, laughing our lives off as these women are being abused. There are also countries with people who still think that women are no better than men! They feel that women should only be kept at home, girls should not be educated, instead only to be taught how to keep the house clean. IS THAT EVEN FAIR? Let me ask you guys out there.. " Why not we do a switch-a - roo for a day? Men stay at home and keep it clean while Women go out to earn the money?"

Perhaps by then, These men would know how tiring it is to keep the house clean, to look after the breeds of yours. Gees! It is a chore to us women! But we still do them because there is such a thing called " Motherly instinct". Moms were made to show unfailing care and love while Dads were made to show the fearsome side of them instead of the loving side. Imagine if one day your dad starts to go all sissy on you. He wouldn't be your dad any longer.

Coming back to the topic, don't you pity these women? They suffer emotional, psychological, phyisical pain. (Not all, but at least one each). Another point would be DISCRIMINATION! I have been looking out for tuition jobs these days and I have noticed that many parents have been giving notes like " MALE TUITION TEACHERS PREFERRED" Why in the world would anyone do such a thing? You mean that women are mild compared to the men? They don't correct your children as well as men? Or perhaps men are smarter than women? People are always discriminating people unknowingly. I feel that we should be given a fair chance to compete with the men. I believe that I can teach as well as many other male tutors out there! I do not see why I have to be pushed aside because of these ADS and not given the job! Gees! It is so effing unfair!

On a lighter note, please stop abusing women. :(

2008-06-21T04:08:00.000-07:00

I suddenly thought I would like to blog about something really interesting! :D
hehe! Well.. the interesting thing is HOW TO BE LIKE LINDSAY LOHAN? hehe!!

Well, you guys may think that Lindsay Lohan is a total bitch, or you guys may think she's a sexpot. WHATEVER! I don't really care! I think she is pretty cool with all that rumours and hottest, latest gossips revolving around her. (:

Well, the first thing you need to do to be like her is to have that really BRATTY attitude that she has! :D
HAHAS! WHINE!! Whine all you can to your boyfriend! Make a big fuss even in the littlest things possible! That I have never been good at! Gees!

Next, you need to have that BITCHY factor of hers! :D
Kill those slutty girls out there! Those that are out to steal the guys that you like! Those that are out there flirting with your boyfriends! Yet, flirt with the boyfriends of the girls you DO NOT like! :D (that sounds fun! gees!)

Thirdly, You don't really have to have that great hair, beautiful eyes and all. JUST MAKE SURE YOU STAND OUT FROM THE CROWD! Be the best that you can be! Strut your stuffs BAYBEH!! hehe!

and...VIOLA! YOU'RE THE NEXT LINDSAY LOHAN! :D

ADVERTORIAL!

2008-06-20T21:24:00.000-07:00

Hi guys! :D
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and APPLE IS GIVING OUT A REALLY GREAT OFFER!! :D
hehe

Well, personally I always wished that I have 3 really cool gadgets in my schoolbag! IPHONE, IPOD AND MACBOOK PRO! Wouldn't it be nice if you can bring it to school and SHOW IT OFF?
HEHES! I mean, everyone in school carries either an ACER, LENOV, COMPAQ or even ASUS. You rarely see anyone carrying a macbook pro! But, you can get your IPOD AND MACBOOK FOR JUST ONE PRICE ONLY! :D

How cool right? Gees! what ya waiting for huhs? It is so simple! Just click on the ads on my blog! You'll know when you see it! :)

While you guys get busy clicking on those ads! I shall give you some sneak preview on the really cool gadgets! :D

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24 CARAT GOLD MACBOOK PRO!!!

So What The Hell Are You Waiting For? GO GET IT! :D

Pictures credited to APPLE! :)

2008-06-20T08:28:00.000-07:00

What are you doing to me?
I'm so into you
And the hardest part is knowing
That I'll never follow through
You're slowly killing me
And I wish it wasn't true
Cause I'm so into you

FUCK ALL YOUR STUPID LIES
FUCK ALL THE FAKE FRONTS YOU HAVE BEEN TRYING TO PUT ON INFRONT OF ME.
tsk! I AIN'T A TOY! tsk! gees! If you think that people should respect you , I feel that you should give me what I deserve too! At least, I feel that I deserve some respect and that you should not even be doing this to me! tsk!

You're just the effing typical guy who puts on a show and expects every other girl to be your EFFING DUMBSHIT AUDIENCE! I don't wanna take any more of this nonsense! In fact, I cannot take it any longer! tsk!

2008-06-19T08:13:00.000-07:00

I FEEL REALLY CONFUSED.
I don't know why, somehow I feel like a total bitch.
Someone please tell me, am I really one?
Gees! I never thought I would be so insane.

I thought I could pull away from all the pranks you played, from all those times you made use of me as part of an entertainment when you're bored. Well, ITS RATHER OBVIOUS BECAUSE YOU ONLY TALK TO ME WHEN YOU ARE BORED! TSK!
I don't really care what's going on with you and your girlfriend. ALL I CARE IS HOW I FEEL!
Stop treating me like your toy. Gees..I feel so used by someone like you. But somehow, a part of me rather be used by you. WHY? WHY ON EARTH ME?! GEES! I FEEL REALLY HELPLESS AND DUMB.

I really don't know what to do. The more you take a step forward, the more I want to take a step back, but I don't have the inner strength to do so. My body feels really weak, even my heart especially when you start getting closer. Like..how we used to be..

2008-06-16T09:27:00.000-07:00

I decided to skip school today (15/6) and went out with my dear friend PEIXIN!

We had little adventures of our own and these were what we found! :D
They were pretty much cool stuffs to me because I've never really seen them before or somehow they reminded me of someone (:

and a little picture of my dear friend Peixin! :D

oh yea! BEFORE I FORGOT SOMETHING!

THIS LADY IRRITATED THE HELL OUT OF ME! RAWRS!!! SHE SHAKED HER LEG TILL I COULD FEEL THE TREMBLES EVEN A FEW METRES AWAY! WTHECK!?
I EVEN TRIED TO HINT TO HER LIKE SAYING SOMETHING LIKE " SHE'S NOT TIRED OF SHAKING HER LEG? GEES! HORSE POWER? FERARRI MOTOR? " and still.. she could not comprehend what I was trying to put across!! SICK IN THE HEAD! I am totally utterly disgusted by people shaking their legs! ESPECIALLY GUYS! Imagine if you go on a date with this certain guy and he shakes his leg all the time? GEES..I WOULD WILLINGLY DIE TO MEET SUCH A DATE! TSK!

Anyways, WATCH THIS! :D

2008-06-14T22:45:00.000-07:00

I was really bored a while ago when something caught my eye.
I was rather curious, and my curiousity led me to many other stuffs! :D

hehes! GUINNESS WORLD RECORDS!!

You guys would be thinking " PHOEBE! YOU'RE SO DUMB LAAA! ITS GUINNESS WORLD RECORDS! WHO NEVER HEARD OF IT BEFORE?"

BUT

Have you ever heard of this?

LONGEST WEDDING DRESS TRAIN!!

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ok! It isn't them! Neither is this the longest wedding train! IT IS DIFFICULT LOOKING FOR SUCH PICTURES OKAY! They're rare! Gees! But, imagine! 1,362M of cloth behind this lady! OH MY HOLY MAMA! They definitely need more people that this to carry the dress! Teehees!!

Okay! NEXT IN LINE!!

LONGEST FERRARI PARADE!!!

Something that everyone would be waiting for! FERRARI!! WOOHOOS!! Now I am wondering why isn't there any LONGEST LAMBORGHINI PARADE! Hello!! Where are all the Lamborghinis?

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Its FERRARI okay! I did not use some stupid picture now! I could find it!!! So i decided to show it to all of you! So don't go around saying " PHOEBE SHOWED ME SOME CHEAPO RED YELLOW CARS PARADING! "

-.-

There were 385 Ferraris which participated in this event. It was held at Silverstone Race Circuit in UK! How cool is that? OH HAIL THE FERRARIS!!! :D
I bet anyone who were to see the parade would drool!

NEXT NEXT!!

FASTEST RAPPER IN THE WORLD!!

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For this..you have to shut all your ITUNES, WINDOWS MEDIA PLAYER WHATEVER CRAP. Pause the songs you're listening to now, open your ears wide and listen to what he is rapping. GEES! I could only catch a few words.

Anyway anyhow.. He is the fastest rapper MC - REBEL XD 852 Syllables in 42 seconds! :D

How fast is that? Is it faster than a bullet train? No idea but COOL ONE!! FYI, He was only 19 when he took the crowning title of fastest rapper! Most 19 year olds would be perhaps clubbing or gaming..shopping? most probably!

NEVERMIND! Maybe the next time we can set our own records! Most Gucci bags bought, or even longest hours played on Counterstrike, or longest time spent clubbing in a certain club!

WOOHOOS!! Not bad huhs?

okay!

That is all for now! CIAOZ PEOPLE! :D

Do remember to leave your lovely name on my tagboard! With your lovely comments. Criticisms accepted! BTW, why would you even read my blog if you do not like it? gees!! WHATEVER! BYEEEEEEE!!!

2008-06-12T20:58:00.000-07:00

HI YOU ALL! :)

My name is Phoebe
P as inPHOEBE
H as in HEBE
O as in OBE
E as in EBE
B as in BE
and
E as in ELLO THERE MATE. :D

Gees! I guess it has been really long since I've updated something huhs. Well, the holidays have been great for me. I thought I would be stuck at home. But who knew? I actually went out with Nat. Teehees! :D We finally kept to our "meeting each other every month" promise and met up that day! YAYS! :D hahas!! Well, other than that, I've been spending most of the time on my piano, watching free movies online and stuffs. Yeaps.

I apologise to you guys out there if I ever treated you coldly. I AM TERRIBLY SORRY. Its just that you guys seem to talk to me always at the wrong timing. hehes! Well, when school starts all over on Monday, YOU'LL HAVE MY FULLEST ATTENTION! :D

On a lighter note, ENJOY THE LAST FEW DAYS OF HOLIDAYS. Let's say the last two days? hehes! Well, although everyday seems not any different from normal school days,(IT MEANS THAT WE SLACK TOO MUCH! *teehees!!*) we seriously gotta enjoy till the last of it! :D
You guys do NOT, SO NOT know how excited I feel to go back to school! I miss you guys! *awww* HAHAS! :D I love spending the fun time with you guys EXCEPT SOME MORONIC, IDIOTIC FOOL WITH A PAIR OF PUNY LITTLE BRAINS. yeaps! Other than that, I MISS ALL THE FUN!

So.. yea TATA! CIAOZ!

2008-06-07T20:39:00.000-07:00

Today, I shall share a really interesting fact with you guys! :D
Don't you think that ghosts in movies look really blue or pale as if they died really terribly...
Scenario 1: Person died while knocking into an iceberg, freezed and became a pale white ghost? HAHAS!

Don't they all look the same to you?
Tell me your opinions! :D

2008-06-04T00:05:00.000-07:00

LATEST NEWS!
HILARY CLINTON LOST DEMOCRATIC NOMINATION TO BARACK OBAMA!!

ohmygawdd!! I feel pretty sad hearing this on ChannelNewsAsia this morning. Well, as you all know Hilary Clinton is kinda like my political idol! I admire her alot! Her intelligence. her smile! It really melts my heart. Although I am not an American Citizen, deep in me, I REALLY WISHED SHE COULD HAVE WON! SIGHS!

Well, anyway..what is done is done. No use feeling sad. Gees.. I just hope that Obama can win Mccain! I DONT LIKE HIM!! =X hehe!! AND THE POLITICAL DEBATE GOES ON! MWAHAHAHAS!!

GO OBAMA!! GO!! GO!! GO!!

2008-06-02T02:50:00.000-07:00

OHMYGAWD! You guys cannot believe this!
I've got a new fetish for OLIVER JAMES!! *screams!!!*
okay! okay! I know i'm going a little too overboard. But he is really awesome! The sweetest thing on Earth! :D
So... LET ME GET ON WITH MY OBSESSION FIRST! :D

OLIVER JAMES!!

and MORE OLIVER JAMES!!

hehe! Well, I'm done! Perhaps you guys must be wondering what's all this about ehs? But its my own little secret! :D
Happy Holidays to all my fellow classmates and friends! (:
I'll carry on with my obsession for the following two weeks still school reopens!
HAHAS! and.. YES! I will do up the results for the "nomination" game we had yesterday! Thoug there is little response! Gees! COMEON PEEPS! Don't be shy! Just leave a little tag on my board will ya? hahas!

CIAOZ!!

2008-05-31T21:10:00.000-07:00

Hehe! I bet you guys have heard of the latest annual Spike TV award! :D
The one on today's newspaper, page 21!
Go read about it if you havent.

Well, if the same things goes to Singaporean actors and actresses, be it from Suria, Vasantham Central, Arts Central, Channel 8, Channel U.etc..

WHO WOULD YOU NOMINATE AS THE FOLLOWING?

Guy of the year:

The first two that would come to my mind would be Utt and Nat Ho. Continue the list peeps! :D

Alpha Male:

I don't really know what this is? But perhaps I'll leave this to you guys to think what it is.

Next Big Thing:

Next Big thing... I guess that would be Jesseca Liu? You know that girl in the 9pm show on weekdays? CHANNEL 8.

Well, yea I guess it would be her, but its still up to you guys to nominate who you really think fits this award! :D

Hottest Girl on the Planet

okays! I bet many guys would say FIONA XIE! *speechless* But still get on with it!!

Biggest Ass Kicker

Well, the biggest ass kicker would go to aaron aziz? HAHAS! I think he's really cute! hehes! :D

Sexiest Siren

Well, I guess the sexiest siren would be up to the guys to nominate their own girls!

King Of Comedy

uhms.. King of comedy huhs? Imma little outdated on this.. well uhms.. Phua Chu Kang perhaps?

Decade of Hotness

Decade of Hotness would definitely go to EUNICE OLSEN! WOOHOOS! I LOVE HER! :D

Hot 'n' Fresh

Hot 'n' fresh..well uhms..Jade Seah? gees.. I'm running out of people mans!

So Hot They're Famous

So Hot they're famous? I'll give it to Joanne Peh! HAHAHAS! *no motive* but yea.. isn't she famous? gees!

Femme Fatale

Femme Fatale...I guess that would mean ladies who are fatal huhs..I guess uhms.. Jeannette Aw? HAHAS! I'm seriously running out of idea.

Fiercest Female

OKAYS! FINAL LAST ONE!! :D
*drumroll* I'll nominate PATRICIA MOK FOR THIS! HEHES! :D

So peeps! tag me on my board okays! Tell me who you guys will wanna nominate and I'll put their pictures up!

2008-05-30T08:44:00.000-07:00

MORE FUNNY VIDEOS! :D haha! laugh till you drop onto the floor! xDD

COMMERCIALS!

More to come.. KEEP WATCHING! :D

2008-05-30T08:01:00.000-07:00

Oh Gosh! These kids are really really uber cuteee!! :D
hahas!! I really had a great laugh watching what they did. HAHAHS!
It seriously reminds me of my younger days!
hehes! how i wish i can still be young! weehees! :P

2008-05-29T06:59:00.000-07:00

I finally understand how gamers' feel deep down. They act as if they have really high self esteem. Always praising themselves, always acting as if they're the popular ones. But they're actually the losers. Well, why i say this is because they do not know how to love themselves. They get too engrossed into games that they dont even know how to make friends out in the real world.

I honestly pity them. Can they ever get out of what they're into?

2008-05-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

PRESENTING...
MS SWAN! :D WOOHOOS! HAHAHAS!!
It has been a long time since I watched Ms Swan! HAHAHAS!!

Hehe! I love this pet phrase of hers! " YOU TRYNA RIP ME OFF?" HAHAHAHAS!! OMG!!!! xD

2008-05-27T07:01:00.000-07:00

GAHHHHS! I feel really sick of school. tsk.tsk.tsk.tsk
Idon't wanna go to school anymore. But somehow...kenny's push pop promise motivates me to go to school...IDIOT. tsk! Thursday is Enterprise UT, then comes Friday, which is Science. Finally, then holidays for 2 weeks coming up. I really cannot wait for holidays! I am so gonna work so hard, save money, shop during GSS! hahas! :D

I don't know why. Suddenly, part of me blames myself for being in RP. It was 5Compassion small outing yesterday, kinda planned between me and Weng Kit. Lim Han, Jun Liang and Murphy came too. (: It was really long since I met them. Somehow, a part of me feels really happy finally seeing them once again. But..Murphy kinda dampened my spirits for that particular evening. He said some really hurtful stuffs. It made me reflect alot on why I am in RP and not NP. Why I am not even able to make it to any of the courses in NP. Instead, I had to go to RP to take communication and information design.

Somehow, I kept questioning myself. What if I did not fall for that effing son of a bitch? Maybe things would have been different? Maybe I would have just concentrated on my O levels real hard and maybe I would have been able to go to NP.
But well, God has his every reasons for everything he does. I shall not question him. He has great plans for me. I shall not probe further into it. Gees. I don't know...=/

I was suppose to have kayak land training today, but i was not in attire, therefore, I did not go for it. Peixin and I decided to skip it after going up to the student clubroom and realised everyone were with their own cliques. Gees..I kinda cannot imagine how it would be if Peixin went for the land training on her own. Although it is a small jog around RP, but being alone sounds really sad. So, we decided to go back to AMK together. Oh yea, did i forget to mention how effing black faced yonglin was? TSK. WTHECK?! I mean honestly, I only told Shawn to wait. He can choose not to wait if he wants to. Why did he have to show me that stupid expression of his? It made me feel really pissed that I did not even want to tag along with them to take the train. TSK. TSK. TSK. OM EFFING GOSH! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEIR EFFING BRAINS?! -inhales, exhales

Okays, yea.. At AMK, well, we kinda walked around, slacked a little bit, oh yea, we saw a robber. ASSHOLE! I SHOULD HAVE TRIPPED HIM! DAMN! you earned it dude! CRAP. Oh yea, we kinda met some sheng siong worker. HEHES! Our ex - co worker. Tsk. Seeing him is equivalent to seeing DEATH GOD. Tsk. Well, honestly, I feel disgusted seeing people like him,who are effing desperate. Tsk. Well, anyway, that is all for today.

Yea, enough of rantings and stuffs before they start calling me complain queen again.. SHIKES! MY HOLY MAMA ITSYWITSYSPIDERDINGDONGBELL!

2008-05-25T06:32:00.000-07:00

I FINALLY FINISH WATCHING THE WHOLE OF YING YE 3+ 1!! It is a really nice show! You guys so have to watch it! :D

Sneak Preview! :

The songs are really nice too! I'm really getting a little addicted with it! But it is really nice!! :DDD DON'T MISS IT! :D
I really hope it will be broadcasted in Singapore's Television stations soon!! HEHEHS!! :DDD

Well, on a lighter note, i finally picked up my courage and applied for the sports media internship! I hope my application would be a succss!! I'll earn 7 CE points if my internship is successful! HAHAS! :D

It is a rather rare chance! I will be able to visit the Singapore Sports School, I'll be able to fulfill part of my dream too, which is to be a journalist! HEHES! :D YAYS! I'll be able to learn from them! YAYS!! I can't wait!! PICK ME! PICK ME!! hehe!! :DDD

2008-05-19T06:32:00.000-07:00

My skies have turned to grey.
My smiles have disappeared.
Would you still be there for me?

GEES...me and my wishful thinking. TSK!
I shall stop thinking.
Stop dreaming.
Stop wishing.
But whatever it is...
I really wish you'll still be there.

2008-05-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

WHATTHEFUCKHOLYMAMACRAPSHIT YOU PEOPLE TRYING TO SAY LAAAA!
http://forums.hardwarezone.com.sg/showthread.php?t=1849787&page=93

gees!! it is really pissing me off! Now a part of me wants to fight for RP's rights! A part of me wishes that i should have gone to NYP nursing and might as well just kill more patients after graduation! TSKKK! :D
YOU ASSHOLES, IMBECILES, MORONS have nothing else better to do? Tell you what? Go bang your head on the wall please! If i ever find out if there are any fucking stupid ITE student commenting in it, I'll definitely slap their fucking faces! TSKK! By looking at some of the comments with words which cannot be found in the dictionary. I am very sure they are not from any good schools themselves. Fancy you even commenting about my school! WTHECK!

Two reasons why people would even hate RP!

1. NOT BEING ABLE TO GET INTO THE SCHOOL!
please if you cannot get in, i'll seriously laugh my ass of at you! Fancy you even commenting on such stupid lowly websites about my school! How about try studying a few more years ehs?!

2. Unhappy with how the way the school works.
Well, one word. RP STANDS OUT FROM THE REST! So what can you do? There is nothing you can do! So eat your crap and stop talking about it yea?

TO THINK THIS WHOLE STUPID SAGA CAN GO ON FOR LIKE 3 YEARS?! OMFG HOLYMAMACRAPSHIAT! Please don't make me puke at your faces! GAHHHS!!

Idiotic! If you think you're any better, then try thinking why are your asses still even in DUMBHELL SINGAPORE?! AND NOT WESTMINSTER IN ENGLAND OR EVEN BALDWIN IN NEW YORK!? TSKKK!! effing pissed!

gees..wait till when there's no other schools around, see whether you'll come to RP! tskk!

ps: i don't go to such effing dumb websites! tskk! my friend kinda told me about it! effing disgusted by you people mans!

2008-05-18T07:43:00.000-07:00

PEEPS! YOU SO GOTTA TRY THIS!!!
OMGGG!
THEY CALLED IT THE WORLD'S MOST HARDEST GAME!
IT SHOULD BE THE WORLD'S MOST STUPIDEST GAME!

http://www.2flashgames.com/f/f-The-Worlds-Hardest-Game-5997.htm

It is really diffiicult you know! tsk! Why not try it on your own. - . - I got into the 5th round with my brother's help. GAHHHS! HOLYCRAPSHIAT!

But just try it and have fun, and don't end up like me scolding 598 F words dying 598 times last night! TSK!

2008-05-16T23:39:00.000-07:00

I FOUND SOMETHING INTERESTING TO DO TODAY! :D
So i shall share it with you guys (:

Its the BEN AND JERRY'S WEBSITE! They have online games! Hehes! :D
Well, i was only kinda curious, so i went to check it out. These are the games i played!

Virtual Snowman

Virtual Checkers

PHISHING! :D

2008-05-14T19:34:00.000-07:00

Well, hehes! I kinda decided to join the family day contest on nuffnang's website! :D
Hehes! Well, Before i joined the contest, i kinda did some research. Why? It is because I DON'T KNOW THE MEANING OF ROUTINE LAAAA! holymamacrapshit right! tskkk!

so the definition of routine is : commonplace tasks, chores, or duties as must be done regularly or at specified intervals; typical or everyday activity. Yea.

So of course Family routine means an everyday activity you do with your family right? LIKE DUH! hahas! :D

So...hmms.. an everyday activity.. let me think about it huhs.. TOMORROW I GIVE YOU THE ANSWER! hahas!!

ok ok! enough of the crap! Well, i guess a family routine that i do would be maybe play board games? Well, my parents are always very busy. We rarely have time together. So whenever we have time together, my brother would "force" my dad to play chess with him! HEHES! :D
Well, if you all do not know, my brother's in his school's chess team. HEHES! So of course, he is addicted to chess yea? LIKE DUH! Yea.. During the holidays, my family routines would be more interesting, because HOLIDAYS are days meant to be spend with your family. Especially when you have not been spending time with your family for a long long time. Moreover, not spending time with your family will make you a bad kid! Santa's so not going to remember me if I don't spend time with my family then!

HAHS! :D

My mum and I love to bake, so..during the holidays, we tend to bake alot! hehes! Cookies, Muffins, Cakes...etc NAME IT ALL! My mum's a precious gem to me okays! For the very reason that she is very good at baking. We have lots and lots of cakes and pastries to eat during the holidays! (:

So, yea.. I'm somehow done here! :D I'm like using my break time to blog? So, how good can it get huhs? NEVERMIND! :D Its all for the sake of FUN! :D

I'M LOVIN' IT! (:

2008-05-13T21:37:00.000-07:00

THE RESULTS! :D

A - People who chose A tend to think before acting. They are the type who are really calm. But they are also the kind of people who are rather stubborn.

B - People who chose B are the type who are usually calm too. But they can be really hot headed at times. They are also quite flexible. But when it comes to certain things, they can be really stubborn too.

C - people who chose C are the type who think as they move. They are usually very hot headed. But they are also the most flexible kinds. (:

HEHES! FOR ME....I CHOSE C! :D
hahas! Nice try peeps! :D

2008-05-13T04:29:00.000-07:00

Hi guys!
Let's all do this test together! HEHES! :D
Well, its just a simple personality test! (:

Situation1:
If you saw a bus driving pass and coming to a halt at the nearby bus stop, what will you do?

A) Take out your wallet and run as fast as you can to the bus stop
B) Run to the bus stop first, then, take out your wallet.
C) Run towards the bus stop while taking out your wallet.

TAG ME WITH YOUR ANSWERS! :D

I'LL POST UP THE RESULTS AND MY ANSWER TOMORROW! :D

2008-05-12T06:34:00.000-07:00

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye

2008-05-11T05:29:00.000-07:00

Behind everyone, there will always be a guardian angel. Hehe! I know i have one too! (:
I am really appreciative of her. :D
If it is not because of her, i would not be me. I'm really glad to have her!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUMMY! :D
hehe! I LOVE YOU MUMMY!!

2008-05-10T20:19:00.000-07:00

oh! im so NOT pissed! HAHAS! Retards! By the way branz, i don't usually treat people you see, cuz i aint have the time. Why not go eat with that " phoebe"? hahas! OMG! to think someone loves my name so much to actually do such a thing! gees! It shows how highly intelligent that person is. TSKKK. and i don't use the word alrite.. OH PLEASE. omg! since when have i ever used the word alrite huhs?

The most i would use aite or alright. To think this person is dumb to even think of imitating me. Better luck next time! (: Gees.. maybe a few years of education will do you good. (:

Proper and good education. (:

2008-05-09T21:25:00.000-07:00

I feel that music videos these days are kinda " Oh so ridiculous.." They have no meaning to it. So why call them music videos? In the beginning, music videos were meant to interprete what you hear on their CDs. Especially, for those who are kinda dumb and do not know what is so meaningful about listening to a couple of songs on a silver, round, shiny disc. Now, it just becomes some meaningless videos i can't comprehend at all.

Vanessa Carlton - Hands on me
Does anyone know the meaning behind this video? It seems meaningless. Especially the last part, when everyone starts touching each other?! WTHECK?!

How about...

4 minutes - Madonna feat justin timberlake
Is there even a meaning? OH ZOMGGX! It is like so effing dumb laaaa!! Meaningless stupid video.-.-

Okays! :D back to NEWPORT HARBOR ON MTV.COM! :)

life contradicts itself

2008-05-08T09:27:00.000-07:00

I feel really happy today! :D
He came online! YAYS! (:
Although we're just friends for now. I feel really happy seeing him online! :D
hehes! :D DEAR FRIEND, COME ONLINE MORE OFTEN OKAYS! :D
YAYS! i shall go sleep already..hehe!! NIGHT NIGHT! :D

2008-05-07T09:24:00.000-07:00

School PRACTICALLY SUCKS!
wanna know why?

1. I'm actually speaking to AIRHEADS!
2. I'm actually working with people who do not take the initiative to DO SOMETHING!
3. I'm feeling really kinda sick of school NOW. THIS VERY MOMENT, MINUTE, SECOND, MILLI SECOND! CRAPSHITBUNNYOOP!

WTHECK?! For the very last time, i really hate to hear to those senseless jokes you crack. They ain't funny. MR.YOUKNOWWHOYOUARE. :)
You're such an ass, sucha loser. I hoped i never met you before. Gees! I guess i'll never be able to communicate with you PROPERLY. For the very utmost reason that we are of different intellectuals. Maybe you need to go get your brains washed a little. (:

Oh and for MRKNOWSITALL, try a better apology phrase next time yea? or would you mind kindly SCREWING YOURSELF if you like to use the phrase " GO SCREW YOURSELF!" on your stupid dumbity dumb MSN, telling everyone how bad your teammates are. How cruel we are to you. Tell you what! REALITY IS HARSH! ACCEPT IT! DUH! You can't even open your mouth and ask what you're supposed to do, how could i ever picture you even putting in some effort into doing our presentation. HELLO! WHERE THE HECK WERE YOU WHEN MABEL, ZEE AND I WERE SLOGGING IT OUT?! You were at the coffeeshop behind school eating your SHIAT OUT! FUCKTARD! Goshh! To think you actually even bothered complaining to the faci about us! GO DO SOME REFLECTION EHS! BEFORE I KICK SOME ASS!

any last words for you? HELL YEA! I'VE GOT SOME! :)
SHAMELESS FUCKTARD! :D
oh, i guess you were hoping for me to say " go screw yourself laaaaa"
but nopes! i aint gonna say that!
GO GET A BRAINIAC TO DO YOUR SHIAT YEA?
THEN YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO WORK YOUR ASS OFF TO EVEN COME TO SCHOOL!

2008-05-05T19:28:00.000-07:00

If you fall back into my life
I'd spend every night waking up to the beat I hear inside
Telling me to be your only one

I'm cold and white
I'm holding on
I'll try to breath for you
I'm crying out
I'm singing loud
You could be all I need

Can we make this last forever
With every word we're growing distant
And I feel as though I have to let you know

The pages have left an empty space

2008-05-01T04:53:00.000-07:00

HOLY CRAP! :(
I laughed at Shawn when his lappy hanged like mad when he downloaded Hamachi! Now i get into the same crap as him! :(

I FEEL LIKE CRYING! I FEEL LIKE THROWING THIS PIECE OF SCRAP ON THE FLOOR! I hate reformatting computers as you can see.. therefore, i feel really pissed that i got into the same crap as him! I just hope it'll be fine after visiting IT helpdesk tomorrow morning. That means i might get a C for Communication Module. RAWRS! I HATE IT NOW! SERIOUSLY! :(
Thank God Cedric went for reservist or i'm so gonna be dead! :( I'll be in deep shit! He would most probably give me a D i bet ya! SIGHS!

Stupid Hamachi! Stupid itchy fingers for thinking that i would actually be able to play CS with vun after downloading it..RAWRS! T . T I somehow forgot the very fact that my lappy's sole purpose is for STUDYING AND PRESENTATIONS! NOT GAMING! CRAP!
oh my holy mama! Now see what trouble i got myself into!

I was still really happy that my UT client was working yesterday afternoon! Next week is UT and this has to happen now! CRAP! CRAP! CRAP! Terence even laughed at me for downloading hamachi. How dumb of me huhs.. I shall just stick to playing CS during school breaks instead! RAWRS!

Please be well by tomorrow darling! :D I wanna get As for my UTs! :(

2008-04-30T01:31:00.000-07:00

FUCKING IMBECILES!
I FEEL SO EFFING PISSED!

" FREE-RUNNING IS MY LIFE?" OH PLEASE! BULLSHIT! HAHS! TSKK! It is supposedly solely used by MR LO JUNLIANG, MY FRIEND! NOT YOU! THANK YOU :D

"One man's trash is one man's treasure" I USED IT FIRST BITCH! DON'T EFFING PISS ME OFF! IT AINT' THE FIRST TIME YOU'RE DOING THIS TO ME. GO GET A BRAIN OF YOUR OWN WHORE! wtheck!

MY CLASS W45C OFFICIALLY HAS LOADS OF IMBECILES WHO DO NOT HAVE BRAINS OF THEIR OWN

2008-04-29T19:18:00.000-07:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
WHATTHEFUCK! I HATE BEING IN REPUBLIC NOW!
I FEEL REALLY DEPRESSED! SICK!
It was not even what i wanted! I dont wanna stay in REPUBLIC
WHATEVER TEAM REPUBLIC CRAPSHIT! I DONT WANNA HEAR ANYMORE OF THESE!
Dont even mention friends! oh please! gosh! give me a break! I JUST WANNA GO TO NGEE ANN NOW!
CRAP! WHY DID I EVEN EFFING LISTEN TO WHAT GRACE HAS TO SAY?
WHY ALLOW HER TO BRAINWASH ME?!
IT WAS PART OF MY DREAM TO BE IN NGEE ANN!
CRAPSHIT! NOW I'M STUCK IN SOME STUPID POLYTECHNIC I DONT EVEN WANNA BE IN! :(
CRAP! holy stupid crap!

2008-04-27T07:46:00.000-07:00

TODAY'S ONE UBER FUN DAY! :DD
smile smile smile smile all day long! :D
1st happy thing - HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEW BESTIE AKA BROTHER! :D
NEO!! :D hehe!!

2nd happy thing - I WENT OUT WITH LIM HAN AND JUNLIANG TODAY! I BOUGHT LOTS OF STUFFS TODAY! YAYS! :D hehes!

smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.smile.

2008-04-25T20:08:00.000-07:00

I had tuition yesterday! It is the only one thing which made me happy the whole day through! :)
I feel really happy having gwendelien as my student! She's really cute and smart! I feel a great sense of accomplishment when i teach her!
In the beginning, she doesnt even know how to recite 1 to 10 in chinese. I felt really lost. I did not know how to help her! But she finally made it! She could even recite 1-10 just by looking at the words! I do not need to write the han yu pin yins down for her and she can read them! I feel really happy for her and for myself! (:

Oh yea, after tuition last night, SHE HUGGED ME! SO CUTE!! :D I'm really starting to love her alot! hehes! She is just so cute. It makes me smile when i think of her. hehes! :D